I’m come to the shocking understanding that the reason the year 2014 was such absolute shit, is because I was absolute shit.
*Minion voice* Whaaaaaaaaaaaat?!
Yup. You read that right. I was absolute shit.
Why do I say that? ‘Cause this year so much things are happening for me! I left my shit job because it was driving me to a nervous breakdown. That was scary but it pushed me to actually going about getting another job because my safety net was gone. At the moment I have another job but because the place isn’t completely built yet, I haven’t started. I’m okay with this because I’m interviewing for a job I really want (cruise line….Rina tryna be on a boat bitches!!!). If I don’t happen to get this job, well I have the first job to fall back on. I applied for college, AND FUCKING GOT IN!!!!!
This year has barely started and I’ve already had these amazing things happen because on January 1st, 2015, I decided to leave all the negative bullshit in 2014. I decided to be fucking positive and do things. Stop dragging my ass and FUCKING GET SHIT DONE!
This is how I know that 2014 sucked because I sucked.
Oh no! I have no money/savings! So stop spending money on unnecessary shit. But this would help alleviate my boredom.
This job is driving me fucking INSANE!! So find a new job so you can quit. But no one wants to hire me cause I’m a loser.
I wanna go back to school. So apply. But I fucked up at school the first time around and they’re gonna look at that and not want me.
These were just a few of my internal monologues that went on in my head during the year of 2014. Not nice, right? Two words:
- Never
- Again
…okay well I’m gonna try for this to never happen again. No promises.
My internal monologue sucked and I knew it sucked but I let it just drag me down and fuck me over. So this year I’m trying a ting. I’m trying positivity.
I shit you not, I struggled for a few days. Like, all of a sudden, everyone just sucked and everything was stupid and I literally had to choose positivity in all those situations. I actually hit a [figurative] wall one day and just felt depressed. I think my mental space and emotions were just adjusting so that one day was necessary.
I need to remember to keep these feelings and this motivation and conviction. I like it. A lot more good things happen when I’m like this lol
Let’s stay tune to see if Rina keeps this up!
#ThoseRinaRantsDoe